The Fool

Perhaps I am starting to lose it, but this has bugged me for years, but I decided to find out more about the Tarot.
I've always loved the pictures in some of the decks I have seen.
It seems they first appeared in Italy in the 15th century and were used as playing cards. When it comes to telling fortunes and such like I very much doubt they can be used for that.
Some people use them to find out more about themselves. Using their reactions to the pictures in combination with the different meanings to each card.
The Fool is the first card in the Major Arcana. He is setting out on a journey with his dog jumping at his leg. He has his belongings slung from a staff and looks like he is about to walk over a cliff.
It reminds me of when I decided to take a leap and go to Manchester just over 2 years ago and meet a Tgirl, Lisa,  and her friends.I had only had contact with her via a forum.
 I was going to go out presenting as female in broad daylight  meeting complete strangers. I guess I was like The Fool setting out on a journey that I needed to make for various reasons with very little idea what I was doing but hoping to learn.
The  cliff I went over wasn't very high, but felt like a giant leap at the time.
I met some wonderful people. One of who, Kate is a very good friend that  along with her wife I am looking forward to seeing again soon. After that journey I wasn't completely The Fool anymore.
I guess I will always be The Fool to an extent and that is not a bad thing. It just means there is always something new for me to learn and that includes about myself.
One other thing the dog at The Fool's leg is trying to hold him back, but at the same time urging him on. I guess it's like the inner voice arguing.
I suppose that's the beginning of a journey through the deck to look at myself which is just another tool that can be used for the purpose. It has made me look at my gender issues, female and male aspects. In the end I know the only person who can answer my questions is myself, but that takes learning as much as possible about myself.
Perhaps with this post I've leaped of another cliff. Now to see where I land.

A Sleepy Twilight of a Dream

Into The Void

Just over 3 months ago I deleted one of my blogs, 'Limbo Land' which has now finally disappeared forever. There are remnants of it left. It was on a couple of blog lists which did make me uneasy and it was just becoming very depressing with what I was I what posting on it.
The limbo referred to where I am with a MS diagnosis. Still in the same place, but I've just passed another medical and had a long talk with the doctor about how I am getting on. This one was extremely important for me as failing would have changed everything.
The doctor said I had a good handle on what could happen.
When I was back in the reception settling up, he made a point of coming through wishing me all the best and shaking my hand. That has never happened before and left me feeling really good. Even better than just passing the medical which I was stressed about.
'Limbo Land' has gone into the void of The Net, and to everyone who left comments on it. Thank you, they helped more than you could all know.