Shopping

Just watched the romantic comdy, Confessions of a Shopaholic based on the novel by Sophie Kinsella. I know some people have a problem with uncontrolable spending and that is no laughing matter. I do speak from exprience. In saying that I did enjoy the film.
I am not and never have been a shopaholic. The strange thing is I could identify, to an extent,  with the heroine Becky.  Her description of being out shopping and how a store makes her feel  also her closet and the amount of clothes  shoes, handbags etc  made me smile.
At some point I will get round to a clear out of mine, but I can't seem to bring myself to do it.
It's just as well  I don't get out to often. I dread to think how much abuse my credit card would get.
I think I might have a look at Sophie Kinsella's books. The film has certainly got my interest

A Doctors View

http://distractible.org/2010/07/14/a-letter-to-patients-with-chronic-disease/

I saw the above on the Carnival Of MS Bloggers site which I follow.
The link takes you to the oringinal site. It's a letter to patients with a chronic disease which I think is well worth a read. I've been in the position of seeing a couple of doctors and them telling me that they can't give me an answer which is very disconcerting and actually very scary.

Life, One time Deal

I've been wandering around, I suppose in a kind of daze trying to sort out where I go from here. Drew a couple of really bad sketches. Drawing helps me to focus. The last few days had me thinking about my wife. I don't want to radically change the person I was to her. My memories are precious to me and to get right down to it I know deep down that I do not want to transition. It's not just about my memories of her. I am a man with a strong feminine aspect and regardless of all the labels that's me.
The 8 days I was last out threw up some powerful feelings.
Life has thrown up a few unwanted surprises that have nothing to do with being transgender, but being T has helped me cope.
I can create my own hell or do my best to on enjoy what's left before I hopefully see her again.
I feel more at peace with myself. I know there will be bad days yet to come, but I think I can cope with the gender identity issues and hopefully anything else.
I feel extremely lucky and sometimes I think someone is looking after me.
As a line says in a song, 'Life is a one time deal'. I don't know if that is true so I'll try to make the best of this one and just be myself.
There are somethings I will never have the joy or pleasure of experiencing, but I guess that has to be the trade off.
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