http://distractible.org/2010/07/14/a-letter-to-patients-with-chronic-disease/
I saw the above on the Carnival Of MS Bloggers site which I follow.
The link takes you to the oringinal site. It's a letter to patients with a chronic disease which I think is well worth a read. I've been in the position of seeing a couple of doctors and them telling me that they can't give me an answer which is very disconcerting and actually very scary.
Thursday, 15 July 2010
Life, One time Deal
I've been wandering around, I suppose in a kind of daze trying to sort out where I go from here. Drew a couple of really bad sketches. Drawing helps me to focus. The last few days had me thinking about my wife. I don't want to radically change the person I was to her. My memories are precious to me and to get right down to it I know deep down that I do not want to transition. It's not just about my memories of her. I am a man with a strong feminine aspect and regardless of all the labels that's me.
The 8 days I was last out threw up some powerful feelings.
Life has thrown up a few unwanted surprises that have nothing to do with being transgender, but being T has helped me cope.
I can create my own hell or do my best to on enjoy what's left before I hopefully see her again.
I feel more at peace with myself. I know there will be bad days yet to come, but I think I can cope with the gender identity issues and hopefully anything else.
I feel extremely lucky and sometimes I think someone is looking after me.
As a line says in a song, 'Life is a one time deal'. I don't know if that is true so I'll try to make the best of this one and just be myself.
There are somethings I will never have the joy or pleasure of experiencing, but I guess that has to be the trade off.
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The 8 days I was last out threw up some powerful feelings.
Life has thrown up a few unwanted surprises that have nothing to do with being transgender, but being T has helped me cope.
I can create my own hell or do my best to on enjoy what's left before I hopefully see her again.
I feel more at peace with myself. I know there will be bad days yet to come, but I think I can cope with the gender identity issues and hopefully anything else.
I feel extremely lucky and sometimes I think someone is looking after me.
As a line says in a song, 'Life is a one time deal'. I don't know if that is true so I'll try to make the best of this one and just be myself.
There are somethings I will never have the joy or pleasure of experiencing, but I guess that has to be the trade off.
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