In Deep (again)

I deletet my last post 'In Deep', it wasn't quite right.
I am sitting in a hotel very tired having walked a fair amount of miles in the last week. I can't remember anybody using anything other than Karen as my name when speaking to me for a week. I've got another day and then reality will crash in. I feel so happy. My friends have been wonderful.
I feel in so deep much than ever before into my female aspect.
I don't want this to end, but I will make the best of what I havel left.

Update
Thats 8 wonderful days over. I guess a monster post is on the horizon and a couple of drawings. Back to my other name.

Wrong Bathroom (Across The Pond)

I was looking for an ebook to download and on the site of a well known London book store I had a look in the GLBT section to see what there was trans related. I   one that caught my eye was One Freak Show by Lynn Breedlove. I decided to look him/her up and came across Tribe 8 a punk band that might be known to any American readers. I've met 2 Transmen in my time out and and found them both to be really nice and great company.
The video above is worth a watch, which features various people including Lynn talking about what can be a sensitive subject. I must admit  I hate using  public toliets regardless of what gender I'm presenting as.

I have also added below a link to a video from Lynn Breedlove/s website. I am not exactly sure what to make of it, but I couldn't help smiling.
    Lynnee Breedlove || One Freak Show || 5 Minute Promo Video

Limbo Land

I've been sorting myself out and the last post while I was putting it together a few things struck me which resulted in me deleting a good chuck of it. Talking about deletion I did have another blog, that is now deleted, called Limbo Land  that I used to cover some issues mainly health wise that affect me. It's not completely gone I have imported some of it here. Anyway I want to focus more on the positive side of things. I know I've got a lot going for me and for that I am really thankful. Limbo Land refered to my health and not my trans status and the great thing is I am still sort of in Limbo where my health is concerned.
One really horrible thing struck me and that I can now admit and be honest with myself. I will never transition and the brutal fact is I'll be male unti the day I die. All I can do is get away and live how I feel  for a few days. The rest of the time I know what is inside and that has to be enough. I am as I am.
I will be getting out again soon which I am really looking forward to. I've been doing my nails which is a first for me. I found it very relaxing and thats my toenails painted. Hopefully I'll get better. When it  comes to my finger  nails I am unsure what colour to go for. I don't like the idea of false nails. As for colour I've got a thing about green.