I've been sorting myself out and the last post while I was putting it together a few things struck me which resulted in me deleting a good chuck of it. Talking about deletion I did have another blog, that is now deleted, called Limbo Land that I used to cover some issues mainly health wise that affect me. It's not completely gone I have imported some of it here. Anyway I want to focus more on the positive side of things. I know I've got a lot going for me and for that I am really thankful. Limbo Land refered to my health and not my trans status and the great thing is I am still sort of in Limbo where my health is concerned.
One really horrible thing struck me and that I can now admit and be honest with myself. I will never transition and the brutal fact is I'll be male unti the day I die. All I can do is get away and live how I feel for a few days. The rest of the time I know what is inside and that has to be enough. I am as I am.
I will be getting out again soon which I am really looking forward to. I've been doing my nails which is a first for me. I found it very relaxing and thats my toenails painted. Hopefully I'll get better. When it comes to my finger nails I am unsure what colour to go for. I don't like the idea of false nails. As for colour I've got a thing about green.
