I'm coming up to a possible turning point for me when I get out next. It's something I really want to do when out, but it scares me as well. I've gone on about it elsewhere and it's so mundane it sounds really silly going on about it.I know for me it will be a massive confidence boost and I'll find out a bit more about myself. I accept that I'll be read. On the whole that hasn't been a problem and when it has I think I've handled it reasonably well.
I don't know why I feel I have to push myself. Perhaps being out as Karen is the only time I feel really alive.
I said a turning point. To what I don't know. In a way I feel getting out is one of the few things I've got left and I would like to make the most of it.
A line from Frank Herbert's 'Dune' keeps coming back to me.
'Fear Is The Mind Killer'.
How true that is. I would like to have as few regrets as possible. I'll have some, but as few as possible would be good.
